i saw a shocking news today and i really feel very sad for the kids and the wife.

Man falls to death after setting fire to Ang Mo Kio flat; 2 kids found dead.

i feel pity for the wife... who lost all her family in one day. why does the father wants to kill e children? i really feel sad for the kids. they are only 3 and 5 years old. it is too cruel to them! besides that, how would the wife be able to endure this pain? i read the news that she said: 要走自己走，为何带孩子走? and she been crying tat her family has to carry her out. i feel really very sad for her.

today when i went shopping, i saw many kids around. and each of them let me remember these 2 kids. i nearly cried. i really hope the wife can be strong. hope she can get over it although i noe it is really 200% hard.

life is so fragile, as this was not only the news i read. another one was the incident in the orchard road area whereby a newly groom fall dead after they have ended the wedding dinner, and the newly bride became widow after the dinner. it was really very sad and hurtful for the newly bride. wedding date anniversary is supposed to be a happy occasion, but to her, it is a very depressing occasion on the wedding anniversary. hope she can stay strong.

life is really very fragile. so i must treasure every time tat i have and make full use of it. happiness is all i wish for and to all my friends as well.

hai hai hai................ today something happened to mii... erm... actually not exactly to mii, but to my colleague and shop.. its related to shop so its to mii oso bah.. abit lor..

yesterday should be her bad day and today is her worse day... mii oso bah... yesterday the cashier short of money... its not her fault, should be some reasons to why it is short of money... coss it cannot be tat much bah... so she does not want to pay half with another colleague working with her yesterday. cos she knew firmly tat she did not give wrong money back to pple. and there are too many conicidence in between.

1. the another colleague was found to give wrong change back to customer many times le
2. why she can react so fast and naturally saying each pay half
3. why she trembled and nervous when this colleague said she wants to report this to the boss

and today, our boss called. he told mii each pay half... haha.. why tell mii? why i must be e messenger? so i pass the phone to my colleague and they talked and talked and talked.. and the voice and tone getting higher and higher and higher.. she felt very unfair cos it seems tat e boss is siding the another colleague..its true tat this boss always side this colleague.. so wat if she is senior? so wat if she is e 正派worker? so wat if she likes...? this colleague has tooo much negative side and we have to tolerate... why? cos boss dun believe.. or believe but still side her...

really cannot understand the way they do things... hai...and things solved as the another colleague said she will pay all... but still, this leave a big scar to this colleague and she really hates her le... why must tat colleague do all these things? hai... no brain at all...

i have been middleman, nono, middlegirl since secondary school to junior college... and now in my workplace as well. cos my boss asked me to be the middlegirl helping them consoling them. hai... middleman very tired and stress lei... cannot offend anyone and cannot be unfair.. hai.. so i told my colleague, i wont bother this matter le since its over and it is between both of them. and she ok with it.

hai... enough of my sorrows.. hehe... today i have no happiness to share.. ps..

my new lecturer Mr. Habib... haha... he is serious strict but oso a joker...

he brings out laughter in his sentence... his lesson never ever once make mii feel bored or sleepy at all... how amazing it is! hahahaha... international business... imust like this module cossss i want to do well...

my previous modules i admitted... i didnt do well as i didnt put in all my effort in doing it.
i must really thank my luck in my marketing reault...

i got back my result for marketing module le.. woohoo!!! i passed and with an unexpected surprising result... i really regretted for not dong all my best in marketing and i felt worried about whether i will pass or not. i was praying hard everyday till 30 october hoping i can pass...
and thanks!!!!! i passed!!! hurray!!!! and now, i am waiting for my human resource result and rushing for my international business study and assignment...

i have been telling myself, i have neglected all my frenz and in the result, i have not been going out with them.. one problem is, i cant have night life.... i really scare they forget mii cos i realised that their photos didnt consists of mii... i really worry.....

hey guys... i am officially back to blog!

if not, i think i am really lagging back... in frenzship...

i have not been seeing my frenz for very long le... and i think theyy have forgotten miii!!!

i really think so...

how???

hehe... now my course is giving mii lots of headache... how am iii going to do well???

tired+stress+work+studies+frenzship.....

arh!!!!!! save miiii plzzzzz!

today is my grandma's birthday!!!

生日快乐！！！爱你！

and today is e start of my lesson...

feeling.... scare... nth else..

be4 going skool, meet my buddy xinhui for lunch..

long time didnt meet her le wor...

onli few days ago coincidence met her at bugis..

i knew after my start of skool, i will have less time with my frenzs... so i hope i can use evry of my free time with them.

in my heart, even if we have long time no contact, we will still be as normal, best buddy!!!

i these few days thinking whether my frenz will think i...

cos i cant have much nightlife during this H1N1 period...

scare they think i wat... but e problem didnt lie on me, is my grandma...

old lady would think differently, and i agreed!

she keeps forbidding me going out, esp at night.

makes me feel like i no freedom at all.

but i understand her intention...

hope my frenz understand...

day life i cam...

this 2 weeks sure very stress very tired very busy...

cos rushing out my assigment which due on 5 sep..

it consists 50%. so i must really do my best!!!

jia you!!!!!

ok le... finalli i blog.. xinhui... saw it? i blog le!!!

hai... long time noo see again....

haha... last few week sick again.... very de weak hoh...

hehe...

been vomiting and head very heavy...

then i went to my family clinic.. and she said i too much stress, must relax!!!

O..o... i been thinking alot... too much things to be think of...

hai... true...

now i really dun noe how.... hai...

omg!!! this week i am sick. last sunday having cough, flu and sore throat.. monday having fever,,,

omg!!! is it H1N1???

haha... luckily not...

went to 24 hour clinic to see doctor...

this clinic actually not very... dun noe how to say lah..

their way of doing things are too unorganised!!! and are not really prepared!!!

the doctor is ok, but the procedures outside... i could not describe...

they gave me a thought that is: they open clinic just for the sake of opening clinic..

but overall, ok lah, at least i am satisfied tat i am ok!!!

i am feeling confused, scare and worry...

i think i have become 2 different people behaving different things towards 2 different people...

双面人...

this is what i hate most...

but i think i am becoming one...

i am dead..

people keep saying i am very easy believe people, thinking that this person is nice, good..

and i think this is a fact.. which i have reconfirmed..

in e first place, i and my frenz A been dissatisfied with our another frenz B...

A disliked B, but i am not.. i just hate her way of doing things and towards people, cos she oso a 双面人

so we been complaining to each other about B... which is the last that i want to do.. cos i dun realli like to complain...

i dun wan any trouble coming to me...

but as times goes by, i realised that i oso cant go along well with this frenz A as well...

she has been making mistakes all along, but she does not know she is doing wrong..

i cant correct her cos she would be angry and said:" i offended u again?!"

she is someone who wont admit she is wrong and she would always think she;s right all e time..

this is not the only matter.. too many until i cant say....

and yesterday frenz B talked to me saying about some unhappiness between her and A, i simply told her what i oso unhappy about A.

i think i really trust people too fast....

now making myself like a fool, like a betrayal!!!

but i didnt bad-mouth A. i just say what her attitude is tat makes me fed-up..

too many things le lah!!!!!! i think i am going crazy! i dun wan to be 双面人.

hai...

am i the one that is the [roblem? or i am not, i dun noe.

i am offically broke this month... hahaha...

no money to buy things i like... no money to shop... no money to do alots of things...

my this month salary needa use for course fee for kaplan...

i was accepted to kaplan... hehehe...

i will.. i must study hard!!!! i cant afford to waste time this time round.

i must oso manage my time well. have time work, study and time for FRENZ!

i like slim phones... how... i wanna get one!!!! but broke le how to buy.... hai...

arh.... thanks! lucky! i am able to surf net...

hehe.. cos my broadband having problem and i cant connect to e net...

made me sweat and worry...

now all done!!! hurray!

yesterday jen came my house and i realise poly got lots and lots and lots of homeworks...

can even cause them to burn mid-night oil

i helped her in video as tat was e onli thing i know how to do... hehe...

i caused her to lose some small pieces of paper which is meant for her project...

sori.. i realli din realised i was holding her file upside down while walking to my house from her house...

she's not angry but i feel gulity..

we stayed up late till 4plus...

i caused her to slp so late...

cos i wish to make e video better and interesting bah... cos maybe i trained in my previous cca that i need to do video perfectly nice..

she keeps thanking me... but i dun need tat...

cos wat r frenz for?! hahaha...

i wants to be an unconditional frenz.... whereby i dun ask for pay back...

thanks jiayong for the cake.

thanks bro for the cute pretty coin bank.

thanks amanda for the fun plant.

thanks the 5'J's ( jenny, joan, junnie, jowell, jasmine) for the bag that i really like very long le!!!!

xinhui, u really have good memory!!!

thanks my colleagues for the presents!

my birthday just over....

yesterday my frenz helped me to celebrate my birthday together. so touch!

thanks!!!!!

we went to the jerkthai restaraut to have lunch.. i chose tis restaraut cos' last year we went before on my birthday and i feel like having it again.

this time is at bugis area tat side. last year is at marina square... next year maybe at....

jenny, xinhui, junnie, kunthai, jiayong, karhwee and my bro!!! thanks for celebrating my birthday!!!

after tat we went xinhui's house played majong! hohoho.. i went there just to distribute money de.. cos i lost badly!!!

so bad right, they dun let burthday ger win!!! hahahaHa... lucky got karhwee to help pay half...

thanks and sorry karhwee!!!

before i go xh's house, me and jenny went plaza and i bought storybook....

i am aiming to read more books now...

yes!!! my birthday is here on my doorstep...

hurray!!!

but i feel that... not mani pple remember mii le...

i could not feel tat i am one of their frenz in their heart le....

how???

how to save it?

recently i read a book about good relationship with frenz...

they mentioned about writing letter to frenz that i value to tell them how much i value them...

but will they think i childish??? have nothing to do???

its my fault not spending time with them..

its my fault!

i really trying to save it...

my birthdae is coming!!! 3 days more!!!! waiting for tat day!!!

i am really looking forward celebratng with my frenz..

but i heard tat not mani goin... abit.... hehe...

jia you!

i will spend more times now with my frenz....

wait!!! forget to say! haha... eng chaing is my brother now!!! haha.. bro!!!

3 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

recently, i have found out my aims!!! my goal!!! my targe!!! hope i can do it...

i afraid tat i will give up halfway and will waste e money....

jia you!!!!

i have been reading a book that teach us to be happy...

i have realised tat i have not been taking out times for my frenz...

and tat i feel i have been drifting apart le...

how????? i cannot!!!!!

but after i start lesson, i will have even lesser time with them...

i am dead!!!!

will my frenz forget me? will they think that i dun value them???

i realli treasure them alot...

sometimes i feel that we have not been contacting each other for sometimes...

sometimes i feel tat they wont want to talk...

how?

to all my frenz here!!! i really value u all. i really hope i am one of e friends that is in ur heart...

i hope i am someone who u can confine to if got problem, happiness.

hey guys! sorry.. so long din blog...

i was very de sad!!! why? cos... my laptop was stolen. dun noe which evil person steal it....

reported police le but they said its hard to relieve it back..

but forget it bah... i bought new one already...

compaq its wat i bought...

life is soooo stresssss.... but i must thank one person!

jenny, thank you so much.. she's the one who help me alot through e collection of result...

my result? haha... surprisingly, did better but of no use..

get the meaning? but still did pass lah...

now i must thnk one more person.

meihao... thanks so much... lucky u told me about some good ideas for other pathway...

and that, i dun need to worry much le..

will my frenz think i stupid? please... no.....

our tourist! pretty right?

their famous salmon...

i really love and miss finland!!!! and oso J2 and J1s guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just changed to my contact lens...

still getting used to it...

why change?

haha... pple tot 爱美..

no lor... cos my back ears got serious infection... cos of wearing glasses...

i realli becoming very auntie...

why???

cos i been forgetting things...

jen asked me to help her get something but i still forget...

and this is... not... the first time....

haha...

i dun lye goin compass point to wk...

why???

hai... 80% pple called me auntie...

i dun lye!!!!

there's one sunday when i work, some pple asked me can change $$$ or not...

customer: auntie, can change 5 $10?

me: dun have！

actually i have alot inside e cashier... but i dun change...

bad? they then bad and blind!

haha...

oh i forgot to put e finland pics out... ltr bah...

sorry guys... tooo busy... too busy.... to... blog le....

work work work...... frm 10.45am to 10pm...

wake up 9am...

sleeps at 12am plus...

so cant get to blog....

off one day... and e one day is always occupied...

now i am back... but not back everytime...