hey! dun feel sad for me bah... just talk to me as frenz please.... i really want to have a relax and happy frenz....

i burst out and cry todae!!!! during my chinese lesson... i memorise very hard for it le, but e teacher said i didnt memorise well... why like tat??? i so sad... i wanna said out le but he stopped it... i really remember but... hai... i am realli stress this week... i have to control my mouth and think wat i goota say before i could say it out cos i preparing for the july birthday babies... and these 3 pple are who i always talk to... and i am one who say things out very fast without much thinking.. so i scare i would spill it out... i am always e one who spill it out last few birthday celebrations... ar!!! stress!!! and i need to really study hard now!!! but u all saw the earlier post right? how to focus? i am really scare, sad and stress about tat!!! i really value friendship and i realy cant endure this pain... i always stress when sometimes with them, i would think did i offend them or will they dislike when i do this do tat.. maybe they not like tat.. but to me it is... i really wanna cry le....

ah!!!! i really feel very stresssss!!!! can say i very sensitive? but why i would be sensitive??? i feel realli unwanted in e group. why they muz treat me like tat? izzit realli because i too dislikable??? i and the other classmates can communicate well lei... why they like dun talk to me like as normal normal frenz or like e way they treat or talk to e others??? why i these few days look sooo moody? because i feel unwanted... tats why. i dun wan to distract their talk. i really want CRY out le!!!! how??? i cant stand the neglect from frenz???? can say i demanding.. but i reaaly like every1 of them, i dun reaali wosh to lose them as frenz... but i dun think they feel e same way... u all noe why i looks moody? actually just to get their attention to let them noe i am here actually. can say i childish, selfish, petty or wat. i really can feel it tat they dun wan talk to me.... how... i really want cry out... i oso miss all my secondary school frenz.... please treat me normal plz... like a frenz plz..... i noe u all treat me like a frenz, but i sense they dun really need me as a frenz or even want me as a frenz of theirs.... i realli trying my best to be very nice to them but still.... tears start rolling down already.... stop please my tears...

ya i think u guys seen e tag board bah.. yup, i would nt be free alreadi, so will hardly see me blogging... i know u will miss me, and i will oso... muahahaha....

this is my new blog skin again... keep changing right? hehe...

hard to find something tat would captures my eyes... but luckily tis captures it.

hope u guys oso find it nhice, if not i ll be veri sad sad de...

ha... i went out todae with my mum...
yes! she has come back! happy hurray!
we went to moe there todae to solve some problems..
my brother coming back to study... some pple may be blur thinking: why she said her brother coming back? thought her brother same as her studying in s'pore liao ma?
muahahaha... dun tell u! only those who noe me will noe why...
i was soooo irritated by my phone tat i went to upgrade one todae with my mum...
thanks mum for the phone!
pple may think this phone i bought not nice not good...
so wat? my problem... i chose one...
muahahaha...

here i am

hey im back frm skool alreadi...
just finished all my prelim 1 exams alreadi... feel relax but getting more stress...
why? i dun noe as well.
am i really tat stupid?
does all my frenz think i stupid? i hope not bah...
i really want to get back my study mood... please come back to me my study mood!!!
my whole body feel really weak, no energy, no appetite at all..
maybe due to the food poisoning bah, or too tired le...
i feel my frenz dun like me... sensitive maybe bah...
i think they dun understand me well...
i dun have this feeling at all before when i am in secondary skool.. when i reached jc, i became quite sensitive le... why? i dun noe...
maybe dun noe them well bah..
the way they talk to me is different from the way they treat other pple.
tat made me sensitive bah...
i never show my mood out easily de last time in secondary skool..
but this time in jc.. i did show many time.. i realli dun noe why...
sorry my frenz..
but when i show my mood, i always want to see who will comfort me and i will know who understand me more...
when i bad mood, i need some1 beside me to comfort me de. so if some1 comes comfort me, tat person muz already have understand me more..
actually i still trying my best to overcome this sensitive whereby i dun mind my frenz treat me differently and i wont think negatively... i still trying... if i dun try hard, i might not even want to talk to them anymore de... so i muz try... and i think i would pass this... hope so.. hehe..
so random right suddenly talk bout this... muahahaha... understand me more bah...

back again!

HiHi!!! long time no blog le.. mizz mi??? muahahaha....
why i have not been blogging? lazi? tired? or...?
guess not... my exams started.. and ending soon after todae.. hurray!
wish me good luck bah!
nut one of my paper-chinese would be marked as absent!
WHY? WHY? WHY?
because i suffered from food poisoning that day. stomach very pain pain.. pain until i cant go take exam.
early in the morning i woke up, my stomach darn pain. go toilet do my business le still very pain. so i decided not to go take as i totally out of energy and my stomach is reallly pain.
but
i scare.. i scare... tat the people esp the teachers would think i purposely dun want take...
i didnt!
this is the first time i ever absent for any exam. this is the first time i did not take exam.
so scared.. so worried...
i really hope this wont happen again, esp during my a-levels
never ever anymore!
need to chong for my last paper
jia you! go eva!